Yeah.. Haven't been posting anything lately, nor have I been doing anything productive.. Just been sleeping, eating, downloading and watching JE videos and playing the Sims 3 for me lately.. I don't know if it's the weather, or I just reached some sort of slump or whatnot, but I just can't seem to get myself to do anything these days...
Is it the cold weather? Was it something I ate? Don't I have enough sleep? Have I reached a burnout?
I'm not really sure.. but I just feel generally lethargic and lazy.. Looks like I have to rely on tomorrow to get things done.
I have to apologize to me, for not being able to keep my daily schedule recently, but I promise, we'll get back on track, Seth! :D Starting today! :)
So thursday is here dubbed random day, wherein I can post anything I want.. as long as I just post something. For today, because 'twas half of the day was fun, and half of it I was stressed on the verge of tears, there are just somethings I wondered about.
Embarrassment. Yep. I'm not sure if I rarely encounter this particular emotion, but I do rarely encounter really traumatizing degrees of embarrassment.. (but for other people, it's nothing.) Anyway, today's encounter was my stupidly walking into a mirror thinking it was a hallway (I think I actually tried walking into it twice..) and even mistaking my reflection as another person.. saying 'ay excuse me' and bumping my head on the mirror. Yeah, talk about stupidity.
I'm not sure still what I'm still afraid of.. Maybe I just don't want people to laugh at me. I surely don't want to be laughed at.. I am pretty certain I'd cry, and if I do, I'd just get more embarrassed, and cry some more, and get more embarrassed some more... and I wouldn't know how to face people after that. I've had a lot of experiences with that during my elementary (even pouring into highschool) days.. and I definitely don't want to experience that again..
Another thing that stressed me.. people not listening to me. I'm always very shocked when I say something then it just gets overlapped by someone else's words or the topic just changes without any reaction on what I said.. I'm a very good listener (at least I think so) simply because I don't want my words to be ignored either.. but they still seem to be.. maybe it is also the reason why I'm not someone who just goes out and says what's on my mind.. I always make sure that it would be interesting to the listener (but sometimes it does fail..) I just hate it when what I say is ignored.. it hurts a bit..
Ah anyway.. I just got distracted with all these Arashi quizzes in facebook.. so I'll just leave this as is..
*clicks Post to swarmnovacoil*
Radical Dreamers ~Taking the Jewel~ - Yasunori Mitsuda
I'm not sure where it rooted from, or when it started, but for me, wearing glasses adds charm to some men (meaning, if they're kinda cute, they're suddenly totally cute when they wear glasses! But it doesn't work if they're not cute in the first place..)
It might be that there is focus around the eyes, but then I'm not really one who finds 'eyes' as charm points.. in fact, I'm not even good at eye contact. There are only a handful of people I can look straight in the eye.. and only a few people I can look at often while talking..
So it's probably because of the nerdiness/geekiness. I'm a sucker for intelligent cute guys. That's why the ones I end up liking in anime, or even in Johnny's are the ones with intelligent characters.. like Nino (he might not have the academic background to prove it, but from the way he speaks, and the way he thinks.. you just know that he's clever. ♥) and Sho-chan (especially after seeing his SCP interview.. being able to use analogies mean an analyzing mind. ♥) Tegoshi has a plus because he got in Waseda. XD
And that is exactly why my LJ avatar is Nino in glasses~ I mean, what could be better than Nino, but Nino in glasses! (Nino with Ohno or Sho is also another good answer. Ohmiya and Sakumiya FTW! ♥
[EDIT] Ah! I think I know where it came from! First ex-san also had a glasses fetish, and made me realize that I also had it. XD
Got Tagged by Suzy in facebook. Crossposting here since I didn't manage to post anything yesterday (because me and Dianne were too busy drowning in Arashi goodness. XD)
The Real RULES: 1. Put your iPod on shuffle. [mine will be Winamp. XD] 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4. Tag at least 20 friends (make me the last so I can see your results). 5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. 6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? Life Goes On - Arashi (Yes, just like what they say in Meet the Robinsons.. Keep Moving Forward!)
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? A Day in Our Life - Arashi (Wonder what this means.. I'm just normal? XD)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Baby! Be My Baby! - NEWS (Someone who'll be mine I suppose?)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Still - Arashi (Still.. still..?)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Crazy Moon ~Kimi.wa.Muteki~ - Arashi (I can't quite explain this, but it's totally how I feel also.. )
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? Yubiwa - Yamashita Tomohisa (huh? My motto is.. ring finger?)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Dive into the Future - Arashi (Yes~ dive into the future! Always look forward!)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Believe - Arashi (Hmm.. Yatterman?)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Truth - Arashi (Yes.. I think about the truth very often indeed. XD)
WHAT IS 2 + 2? Firefly - Arashi
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Be with You - Arashi (I guess I'd want to be with them, if ever I did have a best friend. XD)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Moshimo Boku wa Pochi Dattara... - Tegomasu (But I don't want to be a pet!! T_T)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Akai Hana - NEWS (Red flowers.. appropriate I suppose?)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? PIKA★★NCHI DOUBLE - Arashi (I really wanted A.RA.SHI, but I don't have an mp3 of it yet.. You are my soul soul itsumo sugu soba ni aru~)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? We can make it! - Arashi (Yes, because it'll be hard to make it without me! MWAHAHA! >D)
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Do My Best - Arashi (I suppose, anything basta I can do my best? XD)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Kiss ~Kaerimichi no Love Song~ - Tegomass (Well this doesn't make any sense.. but then there's a line in the song 'If the world were to end..' so maybe the end of the world? :P)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Good News! - NEWS (Why would I keep good news a secret, I wonder..)
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW? LoveXXX - Yamashita Tomohisa (er... what??)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? High Ten! - NEWS
I just took a peek at my friendster account's bulletin board and got this Survey..
♣ Think of one person you wish you were lying in bed with, what is the first thing that comes to mind? ` Hmm.. Oh-chan? ♥ XD
♣ Which do you prefer - eyes or lips? ` Eyes
♣ Medicine, fine arts, or law? ` ENGINEERING!! XD
♣ Best kind of pizza? ` I don't eat pizza..
♣ Is your password about a girl/boy? ` oohh.. I say it's about a boy.. a prancing Japanese boy.. XD
♣ What do you think about people who party a lot? ` Hmm.. It doesn't bother me, but I'd prefer to be someone who doesn't party a lot..
♣ Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister? ` What's a Hollister?
♣ Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks? ` Does Panpan count? Or my parents?
♣ Miss someone? ` I miss them elbi peeps! XD
♣ What color are your eyes? ` Dark Brown
♣ Was it a boy or girl who texted you last? ` I'm actually not sure.. it was a wrong send..
♣ Do you wear glasses? ` Nope. But I like it when really cute guys do. ♥
♣ Have you ever slept in a bed with the same sex? ` Yep. XD
♣ Do you have a worst enemy? ` Hmmm.. I'm not sure about enemy, but there are certain people I just don't like.
♣ Do you like canada? ` Hmm.. I can't say I like it, but I can't say I don't..
♣ Who do you live with? ` My sister.
♣ Is money important to you? ` Well, of course it is! But it's NOT the MOST important..
♣ Are you interested in anyone? ` Well, besides the JE boyz, not anyone in particular..
♣ Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater? ` I'm not one to easily forgive anyone who's done something as grave as cheating..
♣ Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today? ` Does Arashi count? If it's just one person.. it'll have to be.. Oh-chan. ♥
♣ Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately? ` I've mostly been happy, and a bit angry..
♣ Your plans for this coming Friday? ` Friday.. none. Probably translating something for my part-time job.
♣ Have you ever gone to court? ` Nope.
♣ Do you get shy around the guy or girl you like? ` Yeah.. but I also get weirdly aggressive sometimes.. I'm rather aggressive when it comes to a guy I like.. (that's why I've never experienced 'panliligaw' LOL)
♣ What was the best thing that happened to you today? ` That the instructor today was very good at teaching! A good mix of humor in lecture is always good. :) And that Steph still managed to come after lunch. Hehe.
♣ Are you currently sick or healthy? ` Sleepy.. I mean healthy~ yeah.
♣ What is the last thing you drank? ` Melon Milk!
♣ When was the last time you hugged someone? ` A couple of hours ago.. I hugged my dad. :)
♣ Are you sarcastic? ` Either when I'm trying to make people laugh, or when I'm pissed off.
♣ Do you think somebody likes the same person you do? ` Ohhh.. I KNOW that thousands of other fangirls like the same person I do. XD
♣ Got anything you wanna say to someone? ` Hmm.. I'd like to ask Arashi a lot of things.. (yes, they're all what's occupying my mind lately.. :P)
♣ Do you sleep with the light on or off? ` They're off, but either my laptop or the TV would stay on..
♣ Do you like the rain? ` Yeah, unless I have to walk.. my feet gets all muddy..
♣ Say your last ex runs up to you and hugs you, what do you do? ` Depends on which ex. I think I'll be okay with being hugged by one of them, and I'll get pissed off if the other one hugs me.
♣ What are you listening to right now? ` Daite Senorita - Yamashita Tomohisa
♣ Have you ever received something cute from a person of the opposite sex? ` Hmm, seeing as I have two ex's, yes. I have received some cute stuff from a male.
[Again, This was posted on July 9, 2009, but the date was edited so that the posts would be in order. :)]
These pictures were taken on Tuesday, when I was supposed to post this photoblog thing. I was in elbi on tuesday morning, and went to Ponticello bar to watch Ria's gig that night.
Road out of BIOTECH
That morning, I went to BIOTECH to do some more experiments and was planning to get out of there via the BIOTECH bus which goes by around 9:30am.. but unfortunately, I was a couple of minutes too late, so I ended up walking out of BIOTECH. But luckily, after I took this picture, a car came by and let me hitch a ride to the campus! :D
the MATH building! *shivers*
Math. I was really really thankful at around my third year when I finished Math 38, which meant I need not go to this building anymore. It's not like I don't like math.. in fact, I like it! .. But it doesn't seem to love me back.. XD
The source of my endless laziness to walk to class. Specially when the 'Kaliwa' and 'Kanan' routes were established. Jeep straight to CEAT! Yeah! XD But since I already graduated and everything.. I can't bring myself to just pay the student rate. :P
The elbi sky~
So beautiful, ain't it? It's definitely hard to see a nice blue sky in the city... since it's blanketed by smog here.. hahaha!
A shot of Ponticello bar
My first bar experience...? It certainly feels like I'm an adult when I was in there.. It was a bit of a shock at first actually.. I'm not sure why.. but I just had to think "..ahh.. to be going to places like these.. I really am an adult now, huh.." Maybe I've just been convincing myself that I was too young for these kinds of things, or rather, I never really wanted to grow up or something. Ahahaha! Anyway, it was still quite the experience.
Ria's band! They rocked~!
It's been sooo long since I listened to a band live.. I think the last was when I was still with my first ex. XD It truly is very very very different from just watching a performance on TV or on video.. I loved it. Though I didn't really know more than half of the songs they played (How ignorant can I get? lol.) it's just that you can feel more the feelings of the performers when you're this close.. (I wonder how I'd feel when I see Arashi or NEWS perform live? I'll probably faint because of the overwhelming feelings.. XDXD)
[Note: This was written on July 9, 2009, but the date was edited so that it'll be in order.. :D]
Although I vowed to write a post every day.. it was just that.. well.. I spent the night at a friend's place during Monday night, went to a batchmate's gig last Tuesday night, and struggled with a headache (which might be due to the alcohol I had the night before.. it was only about a glass.. I'M SO WEAK! XDXD) on Wednesday night.. so here I am writing all the supposed posts for those nights, and tonight's post, too. Gambarimasu!
Random Sesu Fact #2: Sesu is a Yaoi addict.
Yaoi was my first fandom. It all started with fanfictions back when I was still around grade 5-6 (11-12 years old). It was accidental because I was only reading a Yu Yu Hakusho version of Cupid and Psyche and the characters were all played by the male characters of YYH... [it was a Hiei X Kurama fic].. then it poured into Gundam wing.. then I found some translated doujinshi around the interwebs. Afterwards, I became an avid visitor of fanfiction.net which subsequently lead me to adultfanfiction.net.
At the dawn of prepaid internet, it was during my highschool years, I discovered mIRC [DCC and XDCC FTW!] which lead me to download tons of Yaoi manga (and also some Shounen and Shoujo manga.) I remember always praying that the download speed not go down 5 kb/s so that I don't get disconnected from the host.. hehhe.
What was it about Yaoi that I liked? I'm not really sure.. maybe it's because it's a love story about forbidden love, and you get to see them make out and stuff? And there are two guys! Two hawt guys! That's twice what you get when you read Shoujo manga.. ahaha~ Plus you get to see two types -- a submissive guy and a dominating guy.. I suppose it's like a 2-in-1 package? Ahahaha~
And yes, I'm still pretty much a yaoi addict until now.. I read at least one yaoi manga almost everyday, mostly before I sleep. Good thing there are online manga viewers now! It's so convenient and saves so much space! :D